UGH! Major UGH!

yea i know , i know its been awhile
still going to the gym, worked out so much frustration and aggregation, plus helps me to loose weight and tone this over weight body, makes me feel good after wards too

my gran dad is doing better * thanks Heavens*
now for the disturbing news,
Jason's Unemployment has been denied for several reasons
we of course are appealing it
but who knows when he will get a date for the hearing and he has no income coming in !
it stresses me out so I can just Imagine what it's doing to him ! can we say STRESSED!!!!!!!!!

My anxiety has been off the charts , I think with the situation at hand, I guess some could say its not my problem but hes my partner in life so what upsets him effects me deeply.
the clicking of my mind like someone has come in with egg beaters and scrambled my mind , vivid pics flashing so fast often are happening
perhaps is just the stress
but im going to mention it to the doctor when i go
depression wise Im doing OK
I been putting a lot of time into my board
that frustrates me too, not a lot of people are logging on, I have a group, small group that faithfully come on and they keep me going as far as venting and having someone to listen and talk too
I still recruit new members daily
as I find it to be relaxing
that is about it for now
nothing exiting has really been happening these days!
the girls were so sweet ( twins) they brushed my hair and rubbed lotion on my feet , releases such stress for me
i got great kids!

The Climb ( just how I feel these days)

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, but

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah