lots to talk about

Its been almost a week since i blogged, alot has happened since I blogged. Ill start with updating you on the situation with the kids father, lately he has been wicked late with the child support now mind you its a measly $116 Bi-Weekly and I had a check bounce from him back in April that he has yet to pay me for, so I finally grew the balls and violated him and modified my child support. Its been five years since we went for support so im hoping to get it increased. Im also going through the support collection unit to insure its on time and no more checks bounce. This weekend was his weekend with the kids once he receives the court papers I can 100% guarantee that he will not take the kids, he always punishes the kids for shit between him and me. On friday night i went out for dinner with Ronnie, J's friend and his wife Kim which we became good friends. I got a phone call at 10pm from my Grandma Raymond which is quite unusual and she told me grandpa got rushed to the hospital by ambulance, I havent seen her in probably 2 years I am such a bad granddaughter. I rushed saturday to see them with J and Zach. We stayed a little while but it started to storm so we left. I can tell it lifted my grandmothers spirits tramondously. Yesterday i went as a guest with Faith to the gym. Today after going fishing in the morning, J and i signed up for our memberships today. I went tanning for the whole 12 minutes on top of getting a sunburn before i even went, but you know me I am a sucker for the sun and tanning beds. Im just a little sore, dreading the shower it will hurt like hell. I noticed going to the gym has made me feel better and while working out my mind doesnt tick like it usually does. Im not sure if its because I've made my life so busy by doing productive things but I dont feel so down when I began my anti depressant. One thing i learned over the course of years is that you have to ride the wave, I was so up and down i finally feel stable and while the anxiety is still there it has lessoned alot. I got a phone call from my grandmother, just like she thought grandpa has walking pneumonia. He's feeling pretty shitty and I only pray he beats this and nothing happens got forbid. He goes back to the doctor friday and I will be calling for updates on friday. I think i covered it all, ill write more later.