I had a blog a while back, but like everything these past months , it took a back seat into the never ending pile of undone things, I plan to re do my thinking , my actions, I'm on new medications for my depression, it'd be to my best advantage and therapy to read and have a look into my days, thoughts and choices I make. For months .. I havent felt myself and I hope with this new anti depressant , I will again. Right now J isn't working. His job relocated and he can't afford to go with them, so he's been home for a few days now and so far it hasnt been so bad with him being home, but today I just had to get away and came to see Faith. Usually the girls go with their father every other weekend, but his wife had surgery about a month and a half ago if not two months already on her shoulder, and claims she's too sore to take the kids. Darrick works the weekends that she takes them. I try to be understanding because she is their step-mother after all and doesn't technically have to take them. But not having a break is killing me. I'm trying to adjust to the new medication. There's times it does nothing at all for me when I'm wound up. And other times it slams me and I'm unable to get anything done in the house and I feel like a failure for that. On a good note, warmer weather is coming, and we're gonna be able to get outside more and hopefully walk off these dreaded pounds that we put on. My anxiety is an issue and it varies from day to day. I'm trying to deal with it, and not take it out on everybody. I know that with new medication, it's a wave, and everyday is different. I'm ready though, for it to be a constant and steady feeling. That's all for now. Ta-ta. PS....this WAS Darricks weekend. It's supposed to be a rainy weekend. So we will find things to do with the children like we always do.
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